Hello! I’m really excited about life right now. I’ve been quite down since before the holidays - mega stressed out and shall we say, emotionally tender. It kind of all spiraled to the point of going back on an anti-depressant, which certainly wasn’t in my plans but had to be done. I’m on it more for anxiety than for depression but it has certainly helped with my mood.
I’m emerging from a lengthy funk and I have a lot ahead of me. I’ve found a wonderful apartment that I’ll be moving into at the end of this month. It’s in a whole new neighborhood where there are lots of things to see and explore.
The building is extremely pet friendly, so I’ll be getting the dog I’ve been sulking about for the past four years. I’m very much a doggie person so I expect that getting my own dog will bring even more happy into my life. The chances that the dog will be obnoxiously well-accessorized and doted on hover around 110%.
My new apartment is twice the size of the one I’m in now, which is fantastic and above my expectations. It has a small second bedroom which will be my work/creative space (let’s avoid the word office) and THREE clothing closets. I know, it’s awesome. Don’t even get me started on the linen closet in the bathroom.
I’m excited about all that, plus I’m turning 30 on March 20th. Because my birthday is on the first day of spring and the first day of the zodiac, I feel like the universe is aligning and saying GET MOVING, GIRL
I’ve felt so stuck and confused about this blog. I’ve decided to just let go and follow my own intuition. It’s hard to not get wrapped up in what other people think, what they want from me, what they expect from me, and the people who would love to benefit from my own apathy and failure.
It can feel like the whole world is expecting the very best from me, more than I can give. I also feel like there are people who are hoping I’ll fall flat on my face, sneak off into the dark and disappear. Or it’s all in my head. Either way, my feelings toward the whole blogging thing have become dysfunctional and just bad.
This is the thing – this blog was never supposed to be a personal blog or at all about me. But in making this blog not about me, I’ve lost the connection with it and with you. It feels like a chore sometimes and there’s little joy in it. I want to change that. So instead of doing what I do – planning, thinking, formulating – I’m just going to let go. If you like what I write, great. If not, that’s OK, too.
I don’t know when I’ll be back to a regular posting schedule but I do have a giveaway planned very soon, so stayed tuned for that. I’ll be busy for the next month or two, getting moved and settled. I think I’ll document some of it here. In the meantime, ask me some questions! I'm having fun with that.
